A Work In Progress
Never one to disappoint, I am having a very bipolar evening. I often try to look at the positives that bipolar has given me but today I am stuck in one very huge negative and that is my huge insecurity. I know that the insecurity could also be exasperated by my personality but I really don't know where illness ends and personality begins so I like to think that I can blame the illness for this. I guess I like the idea of blaming the illness because illness has a treatment but I am just stuck with a shitty personality if that's the problem. I have been struggling with someone who is very important to me. We have a long term relationship and when we were kids, we had commonalities, friendship and fun. Bipolar was pretty much a non-issue because it hadn't shown its hand yet and we didn't know what a game changer it would be in my life and in the lives of those around me. I have hurt everyone around me, this person included. Bipolar made me quite ...