Natalie nailed it



This t-shirt is about sums me up and it couldn't be more hilarious that my sister, Natalie, bought this for me for Christmas.....BEST GIFT EVER. (And this is the same sister who bought me a $300 purse for my birthday) but hey, I digress.  I guess it is really isn't about material things with me but with smugness and being better than others on a deeper, more intellectual level.  LOL

On a more serious note, my Christmas Eve was really, really nice.  I spent time with my family who truly and deeply love me.  I got to know my new brother-in-law a little bit better and that is a gift in and of itself.  I had food to eat and those to share the meal with, some are not so lucky.  I received beautiful gifts but it was more than that, it was the fact that people put serious thought into what I might like and got it for me.  Luxury items that I would NEVER buy myself.  That too is a gift.  My Christeen is out of the hospital after a stay in ICU and that is a gift.  I made it through a major health scare and I am still alive and that is the biggest gift of all.  Although, my health is a step by step and day by day thing and always will be, I have it today and I will cherish and love every minute of it.  I will be grateful and count my blessing because they are many.

When I look at the true meaning of Christmas, I think that we Americans have it quite wrong and I spoil my kids to the best of my alblities so I am in no place to comment but Christmas is so much more than gifts.  It is about giving thanks for the birth of Jesus Christ.  It is not the time to wonder the what ifs in life and the how they were going to be resolved.  I just need to take tools that God has given me and count my blessing.  I have been blessed with a great support system and to you, I say thank you.  You ALL know who you are.

For once is it wasn't a bipolar Christmas, I guess in reality today isn't over yet, but Christmas Day is pretty calm for us. As far as Christmas eve, I stayed pretty calm.  I think in all fairness, I was for once just grateful to be able to share in all the craziness that mine and Dan's family bring.  For the last three months, I have been on a roller coaster wondering if I would ever be able to see that again. But for this year, Christmas has almost come and gone and my family had a lovely one....one with happiness, joy and love.  This will be Billy's last Christmas as a permanent resident of my house and that made it bittersweet but the fact that it was such a nice day made it just sweet.

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