Happy Valentine's Day

Today is Valentine's Day and it is not a day that is generally celebrated in our house yet "cupid" left a box of turtles on my pillow tonight.  Why this year?  Why this day?  Why does my normally less than romantic husband have the urge to be spontaneous and romantic?  Well, if I am honest, I think it less about Valentine's Day and more about the scare I gave him last week.  Oh, and maybe the ease in which he can find heart-shaped candy on February 13th.

Marriage isn't always easy and a happy one is no exception.  Add to that the toll that my health has taken on both of us and we have changed over the years.  I have become scared of every little ailment, terrified that I am always dying, more demanding and whiny and just plain difficult.  Dan for his part has shut down some, has stop being romantic and has become short-tempered. I am sure you are wondering why I would share the bad of my marriage but the truth is that out of the bad comes the good.  Once we both were willing to admit we were doing these things, we have been more like newlyweds than we have in years.  Maybe it was the scare, and the fear that life is short.  Maybe is just two adults growing up and realizing what's important.  Maybe it is just that we love each other and nothing else really matters.  That we realize that after almost 21 years together, the relationship just ebbs and flows and it cannot always be perfect.

Today, it is damn near perfect, though.  Cupid came to my house.  The love of my life is opening doors for me.  Which may be silly to other girls but it is sweet to me.  He is trying to be patient with me when I am on the crazy train.  I, for my part, am giving him space when he needs it and am trying to not always be in his face trying to tell him something because every important thing I have to say can probably wait.  We are taking one day at a time and valuing life because it is fragile.  He is indulging my Lucy schemes even more and is the perfect Ethel.  He is my best friend and my partner in crime.  I could say this on any day so why am I choosing Valentine's Day?  Well, I guess because today is Valentine's Day and today my heart is full of love.  I have a good life with a lot to be grateful for.

So although this isn't mushy gushy, this is my Valentine's Day wish to you, Dan.......that you get stuck with me for many more years to come.  Sorry, that's the best I can do, we don't do mushy gushy well.  You and our kids make my life complete.  On Valentine's Day or any other day, I cannot imagine my life without any of you.

To everyone else, Happy Valentine's Day to you, too.  I hope it has all the meaning you are looking for from it.  Happy Friday everyone!!!!!!

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