Stumble And Fall But Don't Fail
It is a few days after Christmas and I have survived. This time of the year is almost always a series of horrible decisions made by me because I simply cannot handle the stress of the holidays. I have in my head these Norman Rockwell ideals that few could obtain, especially me. For all my strength and kindness, I am not, nor will I ever be, the quintessential homemaker. I am not good at the chores, I don't bake, I have little time to cook between school and work. But deep down I want to be that person even though I know that it just never will happen. This makes me spend the weeks from November to December feeling bad about myself and like I let my family down. This year was a little different, though. I only had 3 major meltdowns (compared to the dozen I usually have.) I think the difference this year is that I have been finding more of my worth of the last few years. I buy nice, thoughtful gifts, which I know is not the reason why we celebrate Christmas but let's f